Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Rhythms and Blues


(Remember Biorhythms? They were big in the '70s')

I think I've worked out my rhythms.  No, not those bodily functions, way past that.  I've realised that my moods have a kind of pattern.  Sometimes they are influenced by events and what's happening around me and sometimes they build up over a static period in my life and I feel like I might sink into a really big, black hole.  And until I experience a bit of the 'Black Dog', I can't feel the euphoric rush of creative inspiration afterwards.

This has happened recently where for some time after my trip to Christchurch I became more and more moody, OK let's say depressed, for no particular reason.  It could have been the effects of seeing that beautiful city in ruins, it could have been the experience of feeling the tragedy through my body when I entered a vacant lot which housed one of the buildings where many died.  It could just simply be the effort of daily life of working and being a mum when I returned home.  No big problems in my life, I live a very fortunate life (these days!) in a very fortunate country.  I'm very, very lucky.  So when that crappy mood hits me I also carry the guilt of having no good reason to feel like shit.

That's when something has to happen to break the blah's.  And it usually comes in the form of a night out with fun people, good music and a bit of drunken dancing (unfortunately its immediately followed in the morning by what my Mum used to call "a sick headache", otherwise known as a screaming hangover).  It was a last minute offer from Mr Moneymaker's little sister, Aunty Moo, last Thursday for a night out and I jumped at the chance.  I'd just had two weeks of spending my school holidays being a taxi driver for Nugget's and Chicken's activities, the first week with no backup as Mr Moneymaker was in China.

I was also getting very frustrated with my lack of sewing skills during my 'Mess Makeover', turning our garage into a kids' paradise.  Somewhere in the last 32 years I have lost all of my sewing skills - I can't even put a straight hem on a curtain!

So along with quite a few days of domestic bickering (which always seem to happen after Mr M returns from an overseas trip), I was VERY ready to let loose.  There was a bit of logistics to work out (daughter had to be dropped off at work and picked up and taken to a sleepover while her brother was going to be left alone at home while we were at dinner) and unfortunately Mr Moneymaker would miss out on the after dinner fun at the pub.  Though his sister Moo couldn't wait - she almost jumped out of her skin when I told her it was Live Band Karaoke Night!

Great night, singing, dancing and yes some amount of vodka was consumed (with the inevitable 'sick headache' the next morning).  Aunty Moo outdid herself (she's a very talented singer) with the last song of the night, "These boots were made for walking".

It took me a couple of days to notice the change in rhythm in my mood but it did change.  After a fairly relaxing weekend and some interesting Twitter conversations, I found myself suddenly full of inspiration and creativity - ideas for my blog, a business concept and a way where I could use my administration skills to put together a network for back-to-work mums.

For now I've got my groove back and as long as I keep the momentum up, I can keep the Black Dog at bay.

How do you keep yourself on the up?

*Joining up with Essentially Jess and IBOT*

3 comments:

  1. Go Becci! Glad to hear you danced your way out of the funk. Can't wait to hear more about your ideas.

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  2. Oh Becci! I love this post! Moo sounds like an awesome sis-in-law to have!

    And I cacked myself at your mum's 'sick headache' lol That's a lady's way to put it!

    I'm just learning to sew, I'm venturing into making a quilt for my first Grandbaby. I'm actually enjoying it and find it very soothing. I actually think I have found my soothing thing through sewing!

    And you're a gamer woman than I, I don't do dancing let alone karaoke!!

    MC x
    #teamIBOT

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  3. Oh Becci! I love this post! Moo sounds like an awesome sis-in-law to have!

    And I cacked myself at your mum's 'sick headache' lol That's a lady's way to put it!

    I'm just learning to sew, I'm venturing into making a quilt for my first Grandbaby. I'm actually enjoying it and find it very soothing. I actually think I have found my soothing thing through sewing!

    And you're a gamer woman than I, I don't do dancing let alone karaoke!!

    MC x
    #teamIBOT

    P.S. I've tried to comment about 6 times but it won't work... not sure if it's my computer... I'm giving it one last go. If it doesn't work I'm calling for help!! lol

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